Denial Sets in....

Up until now I have been denying the fact that my step-dad has cancer, but today it really set in.  I was told that he has no longer then till the end of this month.  His 46th birthday is on the 29th and he may not even see it.  He really makes my mom happy and now he is fighting for his life.  I never understood why good people are taken from this world so early in life.  Why aren't the baby killers and rapist dying first?  Instead it's the people we care about that have to go through the hardest things in life it just isn't fair.  It makes it even harder for me though because I have been away in PA thinking that he has plenty of time and going about bettering myself.  Now I feel guilty for doing that when I could have been spending time with him.  Time is so precious and nobody realizes it.  I have to go.